Elaine, have you put any hard thoughts into killing yourself? If your only raison d'etre is going to be owning da Kiwis, the greatest thing you could do is hanging yourself on camera and indicting everyone who ever made fun of you.
Otherwise, it's just going to be the same handful of reruns you keep cycling through. No matter how much of your family's money you waste no one is ever going to think of you as rich. No matter how many times you faildox random literally who Kiwis, they're still going to think your an obsessed loser who can't do anything right. None of what you're doing or are going to do matters.
But killing yourself on camera to own Josh Moon would be iconic and you know Vordrak would more effectively reinvigorate your tard jihad.
Just food(ist) for thought